I really want to do the blogging thing. But I have work. And two extremely active children with a social calendar better than mine ever was even at the peak of my uni partying days. My house seems to constantly need tidying just so we can walk through rooms without breaking our necks and WHY is there always so much goddamn laundry?! I am trying to get in daily exercise and fuck me if that doesnt take up time. Out of every. Single. Day. (Go figure) And I am on a mission to finish this crocheted swan if it kills me. This might sound cryptic so at some point I will try to blog about it. But right now I have 15 more rows of back feathers and about 20 rows of chest feathers to do.
I have 23 drafts sitting in the folder. 23 posts I have never got around to finishing because I got interrupted or distracted. Things I wanted to write about and never did:
– our amazing summer holiday in the north of spain
– christmas trips to london
– becoming partner in the company I work for
– latest scans and tests all clear (woot!)
– body image changes after cancer treatment (ongoing but working on it)
– related to above: diet and exercise – see bbg from http://www.kaylaitsines.com
– progress after ileostomy reversal (in case it helps anyone else to know how its gone)
– what the fuck is going on with my hormones??!
Sometime I don’t post because I don’t have time to find a photo and it seems like an unwritten rule that all posts need a photo. So damn it I am posting this now. Good, bad, boring or not. It’s 0830. At 0900 I need to start my exercise so i can finish and be showered by 1000 because we have an excursion with friends today. I’ll get pictures.
I really want to get back to writing on here again. I think I am getting too bogged down in everything I haven´t written about and trying to get up to date and it is totally stifling me. Starting over seems like a good idea full stop. I never meant this blog to be only about ‘my cancer journey’ and really I have little more to say on that subject now. It happened but it is really not something that occupies much of my thoughts any more. Not to say things don’t or won’t come up but it is not at the forefront of my mind by a long shot.
Lately I am much more occupied with how to improve my children’s english, or getting better eating habits and working more exercise into my day. Making time to be lazy and watch tv and crochet between all the work and school and after school activity runs (hah!). Wondering if this will be a good year for work, will we ever buy our own home?? These are the things I think about. Not my mortality or treatments or all that shit. I am firmly back in the superficial and frivolous. It is so nice to be home.
A view all the way out to sea and a low winter sun. Candles lit in the little old chapel for my mother in law and her two sisters, all lost to us in January several years apart; 2014, 2015 and now 2017. Almost the whole generation gone now, between them and others, in so few years.
And still. As a family says goodbye to someone they have loved for so long (forever) we have beautiful days and gorgeous children. May it be forever so.
I am so behind in my blogging I don’t even know where to start. For months I have started various posts along the line of, so its September.. so its October now..oh, hey november! And now there doesn’t seem much point trying to even think back over what I might have said had I blogged on time.
Life is busy and busy is good! Busy is normality and work and keeping up with the house and kids to school and football and the rest of their chock-a-block social agenda. I have noticed I have even been taking a lot less photos over the last few months and I like to think its down to being more in the moment, living and doing and being rather than worrying so much about recording it all.
For me 2016 was a good year. I am hearing a lot about 2o16 being a hideous one for many people but for us that was 2015. So 2016 was a major improvement. I finished chemo and had my ileostomy reversal. I had some major changes at work, I am back on the regular exercise wagon, life just generally got back on track.
I hope 2017 brings more of the same.
Happy New Year!! Molt d’anys!! Feliz Año!!